Thoughts of my pensive mind

“Lost in the way of LIFE..”

Everything I need
is only something I can dream
It’s always right beyond the horizon
I stretch out my fingers as far as they can go
It gets farther and farther away
Until it’s gone
Never to return
Never felt completely
What did I do wrong?
Lost in a world, that scares me to death,
Lost in a crowd I’m losing my breath,
Lost as a person, can’t find my way
Lost in life every day, Lost in worry
Who am I?
I feel everything is falling apart and its my fault

Lost in Me, I need a break
Lost in wonder which road should I take?
Lost in a place I don’t know well
Lost here all alone
Lost in mind
Lost in soul
Lost memories, there just a hole..

Makes me ME

I need an island in the sea
Away from here,away from me,
Beyond the waves,beyond the wind
Beyond the world that we live in
Under the shinning star
Where earth is green and sky is blue.
Just beneath where angels fly,
Where snowflakes falling on the ground,
Where I can lay it all to rest.

Under skies of falling snow,
Just above the world below,
Just above the trees and birds,
A place I can’t describe in words.
An empty place that’s so appealing,

A happy thought no one can take it,
A time like this is when we make it.
I need an island in the sea,
And all of that which makes me ME…

“Silence no more”

Silence means you need some time
silence means you are fine
silence means the hopes are alive
tears came out of my eyes
silence is no more surprise..

silence means only to give
silence means you will forgive
tears pour out of my eyes
silence is no more surprise…

Silence has turned your dreams blind
Silence is darkness in which you cannot find

Silence took all I sought to find
Silence was hurtful and unkind

Love will go silently
But it’s lonely hurt will echo for all time

No Matter What

No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We’ll find our own way back

I can’t deny what I believe
I can’t be what I’m not
I know I’ll love forever
I know, no matter what

If only tears were laughter
If only night was day
If only prayers were answered
Then we would hear God say

And I will keep you safe and strong
And shelter from the storm
No matter where it’s barren
A dream is being born
No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I’ll be everyone you need
No matter if the sun don’t shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you

I can’t deny what I believe
I can’t be what I’m not
I know, I know
I know this love’s forever
That’s all that matters now
No matter what

A Beckoning Evening

Let evening come,
let the stars appear and the moon disclose her silver horn.
God does not leave us
comfortless, so let evening come.

Come evening luminous streams of delight in the silent immensity will flow
Venus will be brilliant in that star-studded night.
The full moon will smile down, very round and bright white
There, while I will gaze, wish His wondrous show,
when arched clear cross the sky, glow a magic moon-bow !
Time is streaming, heart is dreaming,
searching for a brand new beat.
Let evening come

A broken mirror

I was miserable and paining
And waiting for you, for sure
Thinking now that you’ll be coming
We’ll be together like before
Without doubt, you came
But with a misunderstanding
Throwing on me, the blame
You gave no time to explain
Leaving me in this weather
Making me endure all the shame
That I dont really deserve
But you want me to feel
Threatening the immortal love
You’ve brutally tried to kill

I want..I want not

In the deep dark hole
as far as I can see
a never ending hole where lost things belong
everything that I want to forget
always makes it way up that deep dark tunnel
everything I dont want to forget
goes deeper and deeper down that hole till I cant see it any more
but thats the hole
where everything is lost

Life on Replay

We want to know what’s going to happen to us because we will then know how to act, but the only things that we know are those things that have already happened to us, and essentially, when we always want the known, we live exclusively in the past. This means that our lives are simply being lived on “Replay.”
Besides, we can’t ever really control everything even when we try to. We are adapting to circumstances constantly – whether we want to or not. So the choice is whether you will gracefully accept what comes to you or whether you will go kicking and screaming all the way.
Always trying to control is a fruitless activity. It causes stress and discomfort because the Universe has a way of doing what it wants and not what we want.In order to change anything in our lives we have to start from where we are. Where we are now may be pleasant or unpleasant, but making changes requires that we take action based on the truth.
Being honest with yourself about where you are right now is a valuable skill. Temporary discomfort will give way to being on the road towards what you want, but you have to start from the truth.
We really dislike thinking negative things about ourselves. Many times we will come up with excuses and justifications and apologies for why we are where we are. But you don’t need to do any of these things. You need to simply tell yourself the truth.
Saying to ourselves that we are somewhere we don’t want to be, means that along the way somewhere we have failed. This can be difficult to admit. But without the admission you are still failing, walking down the same road you have been on.
We don’t always have to shout the truth about ourselves and our lives from the rooftops, but we must always be truthful with ourselves. The truth is the starting point for all that we want in life.Hanging on to what we wish would happen instead of what actually is keeps us stagnant. If you want your life to be as you want it, be honest with yourself and connect your actions to that truth. Don’t be afraid of what actually is.
It’s usually not what’s straight ahead of us that is really rewarding, it’s the things we notice from the periphery. But if we are focused exclusively on what’s straight ahead of us, we tend not to notice things on the side, and those are missed opportunities.

The Sands of Time

The course of my thoughts are but a mystery.
The purpose for my existence,
Sometimes seems only to meet death.
Though some say I have a dear heart,
I beg to differ because I don’t know the half of it
What is going on when all I can do is nod my head,
In polite thanks as I taught myself to do.
The talk and questions of myself,
Are far from the center of myself.
They are numerous thoughts and insecurities,
Of a shy girl in need of reassurance sometimes.
Self conscious, sometimes weak..
But loving, passionate, and hopeful.
I live my life and hope to be enriched day by day.
I am young still and have a long road to travel,
And I have my dreams should I get weary.
My kindness should I get thirsty.

Life is,but a dream

Sometimes its better to face the truth than to live a lie.
things seem to be going perfectly then life comes along and knocks you down.
you become breathless knowing the truth.
and it hurts enough that you just want to start over and get it perfect the next time around.

good times turn to bad times when you spread farther apart.
you want to forget but time has ways of reminding you of hard moments.
all you have to do is listen to your heart.
it will give you all the advice you need if you believe in its movement.

life has its hardships that make you want to disappear forever.
but if you let things like that get to you life will never go the better way for you.
it could end badly for other people because you bring them down on your way.

so think about this the next time you get into trouble and let your life go
and always remember that God is writing your life story and if you fight it He’ll have to start over.
so just think about that when your good times turn to bad times on your way down
and follow the path that has been created for you and remember that your good times are a blessing so dont doubt it for a moment.